I was at a point in my life that I just didn’t know how to cope with day to day things.  It always felt like something heavy was sitting on my chest, like there was a huge lump in my throat, and on a really bad day I almost didn’t know how to breath anymore.  It was suggested by a few close family members at different points in time, that maybe it was time I consider talking to my doctor about anti-depressants.  Now don’t get me wrong, there may come a point in your life that the only way to get to next week is by the use of medication and that’s okay.  But I wasn’t ready for it.

So one day I was visiting my local library and saw a class for meditation.  I should mention that I didn’t really have a clue about meditation.  But I signed up.  So the day of the class comes, I show up.  It’s a pretty big group being lead by Melony.  So we get into the meditation and at some point I can feel a tear run down my cheek.  By the time it was over I was full fledge crying.  I have no idea why it happened, why those tears came, I could never explain it to you.  But it happened.  Now I am in group of strangers and they are about to open their eyes and all I can think is how fast can I get out of here, could I get out before anyone noticed (oh god it’s impossible we were sitting in a circle, everyone was going to see).  The first chance I had I bolted out the door.  Why?  Because I was ashamed of those tears.  I did take about 3 seconds to grab Melony’s business card though.  So yay for me right.

It took a few days for me to message Melony, because she was one of the strangers in that room.  I thought, would she think I was strange, that there was something wrong with me that I cried during that meditation.  Yeah I was still ashamed of those tears.

I have now had a few sessions with Melony.  I can’t explain to you what it is she does.  To me it seems like magic (hahaha).  I have cried in her home, and I have laughed with her.  But most importantly I have learned I am not broken.  I have learned that I am not the only person in the world with pain.  I guess I am kind of normal, I mean I am still a bit strange but my feelings aren’t so individualized to me anymore.  Sometimes she can put into words exactly what it is that goes through my brain and that still seems bizzare to me because for most of my life I felt alone with that.  

Melony will chat with you before she gets to work with the holistic healing, she will give you the tools to not just survive but heal your mind and your body.  I will forever be grateful to myself for taking a chance even if I was afraid.  I will forever be grateful to my local library for hosting such programs.  I will forever be grateful that Melony found her calling.

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